⚠ TRIGGER WARNING!! ⚠ I was going to post this on Reddit, but the community rules are being too fussy about what I can and can't post. So, I thought that I would try to post it here instead. I hope I can post it here. As the title states, my life really is a lie. I suffer from many problems that leave me chronically homebound. I don't even have a life at all. I'm not married. I have no family of my own. I don't work. And, all I have left who lives with me is my dad, and he's retired. When he goes, I will have no one to help me. I suffer from depression, anxiety, insomnia, stres… 閱讀更多

Once again, I tried to seek out non-sexual nude videos on here. What do I get? The usual shitty smut porn is known for. And, figure this out. Many non-sexual nude videos that used to be on the site have been deleted. Next thing you know, there won't be any remaining non-sexual nude videos at all. If that happens, there will be no use for me to return to these sites unless I need to get off as a result of being triggered and provoked. It's a shame that there is even less non-sexual nudity now than there was before. I wanted MORE non-sexual nudity, not less! I thought these sites were sup… 閱讀更多

Think of this post as a follow-up to my previous post. Why is it when I search for something specific...in this case, a simple nude car wash video...they have to add sex, sex, and more sex to fuck up what I was searching for? Good Lord! This is why nudity needs a middle ground...something more than what YouTube and other non-adults would show, but nothing as extreme as what these porn sites show. All I wanted to see was just a casual nude female at a car wash in her car while it goes through the wash. I saw a few car wash videos on YouTube, and I wondered if there were any such videos that… 閱讀更多

Seriously...nudity has very little to do with sex, but you'd never know that when searching for it on porn websites. With few exceptions, porn is littered with explicit nudity and sexual activities. This is why most people think nudity should be restricted to adults only, rather than being okay with it at all ages. They believe that nudity = sex because that's how porn depicts it about 99% of the time. Like the title says, porn gives nudity a bad name.… 閱讀更多

I don't know if anyone has heard the recent news about Pornhub disabling the download function or not. But, it appears that Xhamster is doing the same thing. Until recently, both sites had a download function. Some days ago, Pornhub disabled it. Now, Xhamster seems to have also disabled it. I wonder if this will affect ALL porn websites. I don't see why there's a big fuss about downloading videos offline for personal use. If there's a problem with people downloading videos, why have the download option in the first place? Why, all of a sudden, is it a problem NOW?… 閱讀更多

https://xhamster.com/videos/celeb-melissa-bonoist-nude-5986365 Since my comment to this video may trigger people who will probably delete my comment to this video, I'm going to say here what I would have said there. In this video clip, Melissa Bonoist (who I don't even know from anywhere) is not nude. It's because she has her genitals and buttocks covered up by her underwear. Anything above the waist doesn't count as "nude" for either gender. I refuse to play the sexist game. I've long since ended that game, and I'm not going back. So, she's not nude in this video clip, and I'm sticking with… 閱讀更多

I've been watching several videos on YouTube where soldiers return home from being away on duty to surprise their families and k**s. Many of them feature soldiers surprising their daughters and have incredibly dramatic moments. So, I got the idea to try and search for videos on here of soldiers surprising their daughters with the same emotional feelings. What does XHamster give me? Daughters sucking soldiers' dicks. Female soldiers sucking guys' dicks. Basically, all sex videos and not the emotional videos I was hoping to find here. I was hoping to find nudist daughters (in non-sexual situa… 閱讀更多

First of all, I'm an extremely sensitive person. That's on a daily basis. But, last night, I also had other problems that triggered me. I was very emotional for personal reasons. I was also sleep-deprived and exhausted. That left me bitter and cranky. In addition, I was also very nervous about an approaching ice storm...which I still am, by the way. I was, more or less, trying to get my mind off of things by going to XHamsterLive to chat. But, when I was muted just for making a comment about a song playing on one model's video, it triggered me and I snapped, hence the post I made following th… 閱讀更多

I commented about a song I was listening to while watching one model. She muted me for NO reason. How is commenting about a song I heard offensive to the model? What is wrong with them? This isn't the first time I've been muted by a model for saying something casual. This is why I rarely go on to XHamsterLive anymore because I keep getting muted by the models whenever I speak casually. Is there no free speech on that site or something? Mother fuck! What the fuck do they want me to say to avoid muting me? And, by the way, thanks to the rudeness of that model, I was provoked into doing a Smudge… 閱讀更多

My life continues to spiral downwards and the problems I suffer from keep provoking me into doing what I've been doing for years. I just had an all-nighter today, but sleep has been very poor for a long time. And, ever since November (2019) began, my sleep has become even WORSE! Every time I wake up to use the bathroom...even after just a couple hours of sleep...my body insists on keeping me awake until much later during the day and well after a meal. The reasons vary, but I go through a number of debilitating issues. 1 - stress (this is pretty much daily) 2 - anxiety (far too often) 3… 閱讀更多

So...some username who blocked me can write on my profile and leave negative remarks, but I can't respond back to him. The name...stupid12345. Oh, yes...I'm making your name PUBLIC! If you're going to respond to me, you HAVE to let me reply back. Otherwise, SHOVE IT!!!! But then, with a name like that, I guess I shouldn't be at all surprised, should I? What an asshole! And, should this post get deleted by that whiny bastard, I'm going to save it offline and repost it as many times as necessary. So, take that!… 閱讀更多

I feel like the only one who has noticed that non-sexual nude videos are becoming less and less. I just searched for "public nudity", hoping to find just some random women walking around in the nude without any sex. I've not seen one such video so far. It looks like my worst fear is coming true. Non-sexual nude videos are being deleted here. If I'm to reduce my addiction, then I could use some encouragement with non-sexual nude videos to kill any urges to fap. As I said in another post, I don't ALWAYS come here to fap. Some days, I'm not in the mood to fap. But, without non-sexual nude… 閱讀更多

This addiction of mine is never going to stop. I just did another masturbation/climax session early this morning. That now makes 163 Smudges (climaxes) for 2018 alone! Something triggered me yet again to give in, though I can't pinpoint what exactly was the trigger. It could have been anything, but I think a couple of possibilities may be something I said on Quora earlier about how much I miss when I was young and how sad it made me feel to know that those days are never coming back...or, because I keep missing out on life due to insomnia, stress, or whatever. Either way, I was triggered and w… 閱讀更多

Has anybody been reading any of my posts lately? It seems like there was only one or two of my past posts that had a reply or two. I've been complaining about the lack of NON-SEXUAL NUDITY on this and other porn sites for a long time, but it seems like nobody cares. And, why is that? Because most people...probably 99.9% of them...come here for just one thing...SEX. I feel like the only one who wants non-sexual nude videos on these sites, but since I'm in the minority, I don't have a voice. People want sexual and erotic videos and these adult sites are more than happy to please th… 閱讀更多

Now, even the seemingly typical routine of taking a shower has to turn into sex acts on this site. I searched for "nude shower" or "girl shower", hoping I would see a normal video of a girl taking a normal shower. What do I get? Girls who masturbate, finger themselves or do other kinds of sexual acts in the shower. Will someone PLEASE just do a normal shower routine without sex?! How many times do I have to say this before someone finally gets the message here? I WANT NON-SEXUAL NUDITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!… 閱讀更多

I wish there was a video of a nude girl who dances the Macarena. You know that song I'm talking about, don't you? No erotica. No sexually suggestive material. I just want a normal non-sexual video of a nude girl dancing the Macarena. Is that too much to ask?… 閱讀更多

The Smudges are really adding up...not just in 2018...but, since 2010 when I first started keeping track of them. ^^ THIS is why I need more non-sexual nudity in my life. And, it's also why I wish these adult sites would have more non-sexual nude videos. Unfortunately, they are very difficult to find since these sites are more popularly known for erotic and explicit sexual videos. You remember what Smudges are, don't you? Well, if not, let me say that what I call Smudges are actually climaxes as a result of what most of… 閱讀更多

It appears there are less non-sexual nude videos and more explicit videos lately. Next thing you know, there won't be ANY non-sexual nude videos at all. Should that happen, I will have no use to even use these porn sites (except, of course, when I feel the urge to get off). It's bad enough I have a bad sex addiction and often need to do stuff below my waist. But, I'm not always in the mood for that kind of thing. When I come to these sites not in the mood for sexual activity, I try to search for non-sexual nude videos, like "nude in public" or "nude shower", "nude singing", etc. Unfortunately,… 閱讀更多

I'd like to write stories on here, but one of the rules mentions not to include u******e people in them. I would never intend to put u******e people in sexual situations in any of my stories, though I'm not against putting them in non-sexual situations that involve naturists. While I enjoy writing about nudity, most stories that include it are non-sexual and should not be restricted to adults only. That's why I'm reluctant to write a story on here. With the way my imagination works, I'm liable to write about non-sexual nudity involving u******e people...which is not allowed here. I guess I'll… 閱讀更多

Let me tell you a little about me that most people probably don't know. I have myself a sex addiction...a really, REALLY bad one. That is why I'm trying to look for NON-SEXUAL nude videos as these seem to keep my addiction problem at bay. The problem is they are very far and few between the many sexually explicit videos. This leaves me very frustrated and then, I get trapped into the explicit ones and go right back into my addiction. My addiction started way back during the 1990s when I was a horny teenager. Over the years, it got worse and worse. I found a brief respite someti… 閱讀更多